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10 responses to “Sitting, Silent, Open-Minded”

  1. My brain hurts from thinking… or trying to not think (which is not a split infinitive but is the state I might attempt to achieve). Who I am and what those who’ve gone have left behind has been a constant theme these last months. Thanks for providng, as always, even when I don’t comment, food for thought.
    a/b

  2. Most of the time, when I meditate, nothing happens but tiny sips of annoyance that thoughts continue to arise and have to be accepted and ignored, so, naturally, I love all those articles that say that is exactly what meditation is like even when you’ve been doing it for decades. Come to think of it, I have (although no longer in a scheduled, practiced way) and it is. But once, just once, something else happened. This was in the first months after learning TM at Duke from a white-robed acolyte of The Maharishi Mahesh Yogi. During the second twenty-minute session of the day, as I became aware that I had lost track of time and that time might be almost up, I realized that, when I opened my eyes, there would be nothing to see but the inside of my own skull.

    The rest of the time, as always, I have to pretend that the arising thoughts are in a language I do not know. That was a favorite childhood game, anyway; I would try to listen to English as if I did not understand it, so I would know what it was like for a Japanese-speaker to hear it. But I digress.

    Julian Barnes’ Staring At The Sun is an inspired choice here and it’s calling to me to be downloaded, but I’ve sampled the e-book and I don’t think I can bear it. I think it will just break my heart.

  3. The more I try not to think, the more I think. This past year I’ve collected various CDs and DVDs (including watching the meditation promo above–ha!–which made me more anxious. Bells should not be dinging in a meditation video!) in an attempt to relax and meditate, and sooth my jaw, but the audio and the visuals are simply not availing themselves to that purpose. Or I am not availed to them.

    Fifty years, and what I’ve discovered is that, for me, there are only two ways to Zen. Dancing and skiing. And maybe one more. But at 50, skiing is the only thing I can actually do all day. ;)

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