{"id":5887,"date":"2009-10-23T06:56:15","date_gmt":"2009-10-23T10:56:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/johnesimpson.com\/blog\/?p=5887"},"modified":"2018-10-20T13:04:09","modified_gmt":"2018-10-20T17:04:09","slug":"finding-the-life-you-want-in-the-life-youve-got","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/johnesimpson.com\/blog\/2009\/10\/finding-the-life-you-want-in-the-life-youve-got\/","title":{"rendered":"Finding the Life You Want in the Life You&#8217;ve Got"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter\" title=\"Crossroads, by Istv\u00e1n Orosz\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/johnesimpson.com\/images\/crossroads_%20%20istv%C3%A1norosz_sm.jpg?ssl=1\" alt=\"\" style=\"width: 100%;\" \/><\/p>\n<p class=\"smalltext\"><em>[&#8220;Crossroads,&#8221; by Hungarian artist Istv<\/em>\u00e1<em>n Orosz. For more about this image, see the <a href=\"#pagenote\">Note<\/a> at the bottom of this post.]<\/em><\/p>\n<p>From <a title=\"whiskey river: 'A Note,' by Wislawa Szymborska\" href=\"http:\/\/whiskeyriver.blogspot.com\/2009\/10\/note-life-is-only-way-to-get-covered-in.html\" target=\"_blank\"><em>whiskey river<\/em><\/a>:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p><strong>A Note<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Life is the only way<br \/>\nto get covered in leaves,<br \/>\ncatch your breath on the sand,<br \/>\nrise on wings;<\/p>\n<p>to be a dog<br \/>\nor stroke its warm fur;<\/p>\n<p>to tell pain<br \/>\nfrom everything it&#8217;s not;<\/p>\n<p>to squeeze inside events,<br \/>\ndawdle in views,<br \/>\nto seek the least of all possible mistakes.<\/p>\n<p>An extraordinary chance<br \/>\nto remember for a moment<br \/>\na conversation held<br \/>\nwith the lamp switched off;<\/p>\n<p>and if only once<br \/>\nto stumble upon a stone,<br \/>\nend up soaked in one downpour or another,<\/p>\n<p>mislay your keys in the grass;<br \/>\nand to follow a spark on the wind with your eyes;<\/p>\n<p>and to keep on not knowing<br \/>\nsomething important.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>(Wislawa Szymborska [<a title=\"Google Books: 'Leading from Within,' by Sam M. Intrator and Megan Scribner\" href=\"http:\/\/books.google.com\/books?id=TqNQ3CnbCV0C&amp;pg=PA169&amp;lpg=PA169#v=onepage&amp;q=&amp;f=false\" target=\"_blank\"><em>source<\/em><\/a>])<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;<a title=\"whiskey river: from 'Gilead,' by Marilynne Robinson\" href=\"http:\/\/whiskeyriver.blogspot.com\/2009\/10\/i-feel-sometimes-as-if-i-were-child-who.html\" target=\"_blank\">and<\/a>:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>I feel sometimes as if I were a child who opens its eyes on the world once and sees amazing things it will never know any names for and then has to close its eyes again. I know this is all mere apparition compared to what awaits us, but it is only lovelier for that. There is a human beauty in it. And I can&#8217;t believe that, when we have all been changed and put on incorruptibility, we will forget our fantastic condition of mortality, and impermanence, the great bright dream of procreating and perishing that meant the whole world to us. In eternity this will be Troy, I believe, and all that has passed here will be the epic of the universe, the ballad they sing in the streets. Because I don&#8217;t imagine any reality putting this one in the shade entirely, and I think piety forbids me to try.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>(Marilynne Robinson, <em>Gilead <\/em>[<a title=\"Google Books: 'Gilead,' by Marilynne Robinson\" href=\"http:\/\/books.google.com\/books?id=ERVAPnnF3gcC&amp;pg=PA57#\" target=\"_blank\"><em>source<\/em><\/a>])<\/p>\n<p><!--more--><\/p>\n<p>Not from <em>whiskey river<\/em>:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>&#8230;there is a growing apprehension that existence is a rat-race in a trap: living organisms, including people, are merely tubes which put things in at one end and let them out at the other, which both keeps them doing it and in the long run wears them out. So to keep the farce going, the tubes find ways of making new tubes, which also put things in at one end and let them out at the other. At the input end they even develop ganglia of nerves called brains, with eyes and ears, so that they can more easily scrounge around for things to swallow. As and when they get enough to eat, they use up their surplus energy by wiggling in complicated patterns, making all sorts of noises by blowing air in and out of the input hole, and gathering together in groups to fight with other groups.<\/p>\n<p>In time, the tubes grow such an abundance of attached appliances that they are hardly recognizable as mere tubes, and they manage to do this in a staggering variety of forms. There is a vague rule not to eat tubes of your own form, but in general there is serious competition as to who is going to be the top type of tube. All this seems marvelously futile, and yet, when you begin to think about it, it begins to be more marvelous than futile. Indeed, it seems extremely odd. It is a special kind of enlightenment to have this feeling that the usual, the way things normally are, is odd&#8211;uncanny and highly improbable. G. K. Chesterton once said that it is one thing to be amazed at a gorgon or a griffin, creatures which do not exist; but it is quite another and much higher thing to be amazed at a rhinoceros or a giraffe, creatures which do exist and look as if they don&#8217;t.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>(Alan Watts: <em>The Book: On the Taboo of Knowing Who You Are<\/em>)<\/p>\n<p>Given all the above, this was pretty hard not to include: &#8220;What Do You Want from Life,&#8221; by the 1970s punk-rock band <a title=\"Wikipedia, on The Tubes\" href=\"http:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/The_Tubes\" target=\"_blank\">The Tubes<\/a>. Or maybe I should say <em>former<\/em> punk-rock band: they&#8217;ve changed personnel (and looks) numerous times, and now seem to be touring, albeit successfully, as a sort of nostalgia act. (Who would have thought punk rockers would ever do so &#8212; ever want, or be able, to do so?) The video below doesn&#8217;t actually show <a title=\"The Tubes: Official Web Site\" href=\"http:\/\/www.thetubes.com\/\" target=\"_blank\">this aging version<\/a> of the band, choosing instead simply to interpret the lyrics (which appear below).<\/p>\n<div class=\"intrinsic-container intrinsic-container-16x9\"><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/X6urv_LpVJI\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"autoplay; encrypted-media\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/div>\n<p>Here&#8217;s the version as recorded (especially for those of you who might lack YouTube access &#8212; and if this streaming-audio version doesn&#8217;t work, either, well&#8230; there&#8217;s always a way!):<\/p>\n\n<p>Lyrics:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p><em><strong>What Do You Want From Life<\/strong><br \/>\n(Music and lyrics by Bill Spooner and Michael Evans;<br \/>\nperformed by The Tubes)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>What do you want from life<br \/>\nTo kidnap an heiress<br \/>\nor threaten her with a knife<br \/>\nWhat do you want from life<br \/>\nTo get cable TV<br \/>\nand watch it every night<\/p>\n<p>There you sit<br \/>\na lump in your chair<br \/>\nWhere do you sleep<br \/>\nand what do you wear<br \/>\nwhen you&#8217;re sleeping<\/p>\n<p>What do you want from life<br \/>\nAn Indian guru<br \/>\nto show you the inner light<br \/>\nWhat do you want from life<br \/>\na meaningless love affair<br \/>\nwith a girl that you met tonight<\/p>\n<p>How can you tell when you&#8217;re doin&#8217; alright<br \/>\nDoes your bank account swell<br \/>\nWhile you&#8217;re dreaming at night<br \/>\nHow do know when you&#8217;re really in love<br \/>\nDo violins play when you&#8217;re touching the one<br \/>\nThat you&#8217;re loving<\/p>\n<p>What do you want from life<br \/>\nSomeone to love<br \/>\nand somebody that you can trust<br \/>\nWhat do you want from life<br \/>\nTo try and be happy<br \/>\nwhile you do the nasty things you must<\/p>\n<p>Well, you can&#8217;t have that, but if you&#8217;re an American citizen you are entitled to:<br \/>\na heated kidney shaped pool,<br \/>\na microwave oven &#8212; don&#8217;t watch the food cook,<br \/>\na Dyna-Gym &#8212; I&#8217;ll personally demonstrate it in the privacy of your own home,<br \/>\na king-size Titanic unsinkable Molly Brown waterbed with polybendum,<br \/>\na foolproof plan and an airtight alibi,<br \/>\nreal simulated Indian jewelry,<br \/>\na Gucci shoetree,<br \/>\na year&#8217;s supply of antibiotics,<br \/>\na personally autographed picture of Randy Mantooth<br \/>\nand Bob Dylan&#8217;s new unlisted phone number,<br \/>\na beautifully restored 3rd Reich swizzle stick,<br \/>\nRosemary&#8217;s baby,<br \/>\na dream date in kneepads with Paul Williams,<br \/>\na new Matador, a new mastodon,<br \/>\na Maverick, a Mustang, a Montego,<br \/>\na Merc Montclair, a Mark IV, a Meteor,<br \/>\na Mercedes, an MG, or a Malibu,<br \/>\na Mort Moriarty, a Maserati, a Mack truck,<br \/>\na Mazda, a new Monza, or a moped,<br \/>\na Winnebago &#8212; hell, a herd of Winnebago&#8217;s we&#8217;re giving &#8217;em away,<br \/>\nor how about a McCulloch chainsaw,<br \/>\na Las Vegas wedding,<br \/>\na Mexican divorce,<br \/>\na solid gold Kama Sutra coffee pot,<br \/>\nor a baby&#8217;s arm holding an apple?<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>___________________<\/p>\n<p><a name=\"pagenote\"><\/a><strong>Note:<\/strong> The image at the top of this post, &#8220;Crossroads,&#8221; is by Hungarian artist <a title=\"Wikipedia, on Istv\u00e1n Orosz\" href=\"http:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Istv%C3%A1n_Orosz\" target=\"_blank\">Istv\u00e1n Orosz<\/a>. You can find it numerous places around the Web, but I first encountered it <a title=\"Impossible Worlds: The principles of artistic illusions\" href=\"http:\/\/im-possible.info\/english\/articles\/vis_math_art\/index.html\" target=\"_blank\">here<\/a>, at a site called <em>Impossible World<span style=\"color: #c0c0c0;\"><span style=\"text-decoration: line-through;\">s<\/span><\/span><\/em>. The author there says of it: &#8220;The work depicts crossing bridges that could not exist in the three-dimensional world. For example, there are reflections where there are no bridges to be reflected.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>If you can spare ten minutes to experience something beautiful and mysterious, skip over to YouTube to see Orosz&#8217;s animated short film <a title=\"Istv\u00e1n Orosz: 'Az id? l\u00e1tk\u00e9pei (Time Sights)'\" href=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=vD3qgSY5MPI\" target=\"_blank\"><em>Time Sights<\/em><\/a> (2004). The voiceover&#8217;s English translation (by David Evans) appears on the right side of the page, when you click on the &#8220;More Info&#8221; link. It begins:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>The morning will be so real, so perfect,<br \/>\nlike a dream, the taste of a dream<br \/>\nto be remembered by a dreamer woken in another dream.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>&#8230;and ends:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>The dream was forever locked in its own time,<br \/>\na series of pictures with no beginning and end,<br \/>\nno reference points, no hierarchy;<br \/>\nit was as if we were the characters in an art movie.<\/p>\n<p>Time and space both ceased to exist,<br \/>\nbecoming mere elements of a ceremony,<br \/>\nof a secret contract, or a rule of a game,<br \/>\nthe origin of which nobody could remember.<\/p>\n<p>Creation was suspended.<br \/>\nThe person who would give it a name had not arrived yet.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>[&#8220;Crossroads,&#8221; by Hungarian artist Istv\u00e1n Orosz. 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