[Caption: Vicar’s wife (sympathisingly): “Now that you can’t get about, and are not able to read, how do you manage to occupy the time?” Old Man: “Well, Mum, sometimes I sits and thinks; and then again I just sits.” For more information, see the note at the foot of this post.]
From whiskey river:
Meditation has nothing to do with contemplation of eternal questions, or of one’s own folly, or even of one’s navel, although a clearer view on all of these enigmas may result. It has nothing to do with thought of any kind — with anything at all, in fact, but intuiting the true nature of existence, which is why it has appeared, in one form or another, in almost every culture known to man. The entranced Bushman staring into fire, the Eskimo using a sharp rock to draw an ever-deepening circle into the flat surface of a stone achieves the same obliteration of the ego (and the same power) as the dervish or the Pueblo sacred dancer. Among Hindus and Buddhists, realization is attained through inner stillness, usually achieved through the samadhi state of sitting yoga. In Tantric practice, the student may displace the ego by filling his whole being with the real or imagined object of his concentration; in Zen, one seeks to empty out the mind, to return it to the clear, pure stillness of a seashell or flower petal. When body and mind are one, then the whole thing, scoured clean of intellect, emotions, and the senses, may be laid open to the experience that individual existence, ego, the “reality” of matter and phenomena are no more than fleeting and illusory arrangements of molecules. The weary self of masks and screens, defenses, preconceptions, and opinions that are propped up by ideas and words, imagines itself to be some sort of an entity (in a society of like entities) may suddenly fall away, dissolve into formless faux where concepts such as “death” and “life”, “time” and “space”, “past” and “future” have no meaning. There is only a pearly radiance of Emptiness, the Uncreated, without beginning, therefore without end.
Like the round bottomed Bodhidharma doll, returning to its center, meditation represents the foundation of the universe to which all returns, as in the stillness of the dead of night, the stillness between tides and winds, the stillness of the instant before Creation. In this “void”, this dynamic state of rest, without impediments, lies ultimate reality, and here one’s own true nature is reborn, in a return from what Buddhists speak of as “great death”.
(Peter Matthiessen, The Snow Leopard)
…and:
The wind blows hard among the pines
Toward the beginning
of an endless past.
Listen: you’ve heard everything.
(Shinkichi Takahashi [source])
Not from whiskey river:
Extinction of Silence
That it was shy when alive goes without saying.
We know it vanished at the sound of voicesOr footsteps. It took wing at the slightest noises,
Though it could be approached by someone praying.We have no recordings of it, though of course
In the basement of the Museum, we have some stuffedMoth-eaten specimens — the Lesser Ruffed
And Yellow Spotted — filed in narrow drawers.But its song is lost. If it was related to
A species of Quiet, or of another feather,No researcher can know. Not even whether
A breeding pair still nests deep in the bayou,Where legend has it some once common bird
Decades ago was first not seen, not heard.
(A.E. Stallings [source])
…and:
Letter to Denise
Remember when you put on that wig
From the grab bag and then looked at yourself
In the mirror and laughed, and we laughed together?
It was a transformation, glamorous flowing tresses.
Who knows if you might not have liked to wear
That wig permanently, but of course you
Wouldn’t. Remember when you told me how
You meditated, looking at a stone until
You knew the soul of the stone? Inwardly I
Scoffed, being the backwoods pragmatic Yankee
That I was, yet I knew what you meant. I
Called it love. No magic was needed. And we
Loved each other too, not in the way of
Romance but in the way of two poets loving
A stone, and the world that the stone signified.
Remember when we had that argument over
Pee and piss in your poem about the bear?
“Bears don’t pee, they piss,” I said. But you were
Adamant. “My bears pee.” And that was that.
Then you moved away, across the continent,
And sometimes for a year I didn’t see you.
We phoned and wrote, we kept in touch. And then
You moved again, much farther away, I don’t
Know where. No word from you now at all. But
I am faithful, my dear Denise. And I still
Love the stone, and, yes, I know its soul.
(Hayden Carruth [source])
…and:
…as [Sergeant-Pilot Tommy Prosser] glanced up the Channel to the east he saw the sun begin to rise. The air was empty and serene as the orange sun extracted itself calmly and steadily from the sticky yellow bar of the horizon. Prosser followed its slow exposure. Out of trained instinct, his head jerked on his neck every three seconds, but it seems unlikely he would have spotted a German fighter had there been one. All he could take in was the sun rising from the sea: stately, inexorable, almost comic…
Halfway across the Channel he allowed himself, like the German bomber crews, to think about hot coffee and the bacon sandwich he would eat after debriefing. Then something happened. The speed of his descent had driven the sun back below the horizon, and as he looked towards the east he saw it rise again: the same sun coming up from the same place across the same sea. Once more, Prosser put aside caution and just watched: the orange globe, the yellow bar, the horizon’s shelf, the serene air, and the smooth, weightless lift of the sun as it rose from the waves for the second time that morning. It was an ordinary miracle he would never forget.
(Julian Barnes [source])
…and:
The world is full of people who have never, since childhood, met an open doorway with an open mind.
(E.B. White [widely quoted, apparently never sourced])
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Note (about the image): The way I always heard that punchline, and remember seeing in various forms — on posters, bumper stickers, ticky-tacky woodburned red-cedar plaques and such — was: Sometimes I sits and thinks, and sometimes I just sits. It seemed such an obvious fit with today’s theme (such as it is). And I came this close to including it in that form, attributing it to folksy humorist “Kin” Hubbard. It’s so like something he’d say, right?
But, well, you know how it is. I got to wondering if Hubbard had really said it, or even said it first… No, insisted Google (at the outset): it came from folksy baseball great Satchel Paige. Okay — it sorta sounded like something he’d say, too…
<annoyingly loud “wrong answer!” buzzer>
Nope. It was this cartoon in British humor magazine Punch, from October 1906 (the year Satchel Paige was born). If you’d like to see the original page in context with the rest of the issue, it’s here. (For an index to online copies of the Punch archives through 1922, see the corresponding University of Pennsylvania’s Online Books Page.)
Ashleigh Burroughs says
My brain hurts from thinking… or trying to not think (which is not a split infinitive but is the state I might attempt to achieve). Who I am and what those who’ve gone have left behind has been a constant theme these last months. Thanks for providng, as always, even when I don’t comment, food for thought.
a/b
John says
See? This is one of the ultimate, conclusive bits of proof that you’re damn near healed: you’re worried about thinking, not-thinking, split infinitives, identity, and time. You didn’t even focus on the fact that the guy in the cartoon’s got a gimpy leg.
(Oh, great. I just triggered that topic, didn’t I???)
Nance says
Most of the time, when I meditate, nothing happens but tiny sips of annoyance that thoughts continue to arise and have to be accepted and ignored, so, naturally, I love all those articles that say that is exactly what meditation is like even when you’ve been doing it for decades. Come to think of it, I have (although no longer in a scheduled, practiced way) and it is. But once, just once, something else happened. This was in the first months after learning TM at Duke from a white-robed acolyte of The Maharishi Mahesh Yogi. During the second twenty-minute session of the day, as I became aware that I had lost track of time and that time might be almost up, I realized that, when I opened my eyes, there would be nothing to see but the inside of my own skull.
The rest of the time, as always, I have to pretend that the arising thoughts are in a language I do not know. That was a favorite childhood game, anyway; I would try to listen to English as if I did not understand it, so I would know what it was like for a Japanese-speaker to hear it. But I digress.
Julian Barnes’ Staring At The Sun is an inspired choice here and it’s calling to me to be downloaded, but I’ve sampled the e-book and I don’t think I can bear it. I think it will just break my heart.
John says
As it happens, while I was browsing around the Web during this post’s construction/assemblage, I came across this little video:
(It’s a promo for this book, One-Moment Meditation. I probably would have included it in the body of the post itself, except that I — as you probably have always suspected — prefer to keep these Friday posts as non-didactic as possible.)
I like his suggested response to the problem of catching yourself thinking: just go, like, Hmm. (Which is close enough to Om, as they say, as to make no never mind.)
Nance says
Cuter’n a speckled puppy, that is!
John says
Oh, and btw, Staring at the Sun (as I recall) isn’t THAT heartbreaking. It’s been a long while since I read it but yes, I downloaded it the other day and was reminded how much I liked it.
Jayne says
The more I try not to think, the more I think. This past year I’ve collected various CDs and DVDs (including watching the meditation promo above–ha!–which made me more anxious. Bells should not be dinging in a meditation video!) in an attempt to relax and meditate, and sooth my jaw, but the audio and the visuals are simply not availing themselves to that purpose. Or I am not availed to them.
Fifty years, and what I’ve discovered is that, for me, there are only two ways to Zen. Dancing and skiing. And maybe one more. But at 50, skiing is the only thing I can actually do all day. ;)
John says
Well, that pretty much leaves me flat-out of answers, or at least answers that I dare share. (Maybe that means I’ve attained true enlightenment or something. What better way to confront a koan than completely, utterly answerless?)
You may be one of those hard cases that require an intensive, more prolonged group or master-student sort of training. Sounds like the internal monologuist just can’t shut up. :)
(Get that? “Just”? See what I did there? Like quieting him/her is all you’ve gotta do, and that’s, y’know, SO EASY.)
Jayne says
That’s it! The internal voice streams. I’ll have you know, though, at a recent Reiki session, I smothered it, choked it nearly entirely by first, consciously, thinking of this post (especially the A.E. Stallings piece), and pondering the excessive inner dialogue. Neuroses. Sometimes I feel like I’m a bad Woody Allen film. No, actually, a good one!
Not everything requires an answer, right? ;)
John says
…but not everyone can resist answering anyhow. :)