[Photo (untitled, as far as I know) by Vivian Maier.]
From whiskey river:
Writing in the Afterlife
I imagined the atmosphere would be clear,
shot with pristine light,
not this sulphurous haze,
the air ionized as before a thunderstorm.Many have pictured a river here,
but no one mentioned all the boats,
their benches crowded with naked passengers,
each bent over a writing tablet.I knew I would not always be a child
with a model train and a model tunnel,
and I knew I would not live forever,
jumping all day through the hoop of myself.I had heard about the journey to the other side
and the clink of the final coin
in the leather purse of the man holding the oar,
but how could anyone have guessedthat as soon as we arrived
we would be asked to describe this place
and to include as much detail as possible—
not just the water, he insists,rather the oily, fathomless, rat-happy water,
not simply the shackles, but the rusty,
iron, ankle-shredding shackles—
and that our next assignment would beto jot down, off the tops of our heads,
our thoughts and feelings about being dead,
not really an assignment,
the man rotating the oar keeps telling us—think of it more as an exercise, he groans,
think of writing as a process,
a never-ending, infernal process,
and now the boats have become jammed together,bow against stern, stern locked to bow,
and not a thing is moving, only our diligent pens.
(Billy Collins [source])
…and:
At every moment, behind the most efficient seeming adult exterior, the whole world of the person’s childhood is being carefully held like a glass of water bulging above the brim. And in fact, that child is the only real thing in them. It’s their humanity, their real individuality, the one that can’t understand why it was born and that knows it will have to die, in no matter how crowded a place, quite on its own. That’s the carrier of all the living qualities. It’s the center of all the possible magic and revelation.
(Ted Hughes [source, p. 513])
…and:
And that’s how we measure out our real respect for people — by the degree of feeling they can register, the voltage of life they can carry and tolerate — and enjoy. End of sermon. As Buddha says: live like a mighty river. And as the old Greeks said: live as though all your ancestors were living again through you.
(Ted Hughes [source, p. 514])
…and:
I interviewed a woman who is terminally ill. So I tried to delicately ask, “What is it like to wake up every morning and know that you are dying?” “Well,” she responded, “What is it like to wake up every morning and pretend that you are not?”
(Marc Chernoff [ascribed; source])
Not from whiskey river:
XCVI
My life closed twice before its close;
It yet remains to see
If Immortality unveil
A third event to me,So huge, so hopeless to conceive,
As these that twice befell.
Parting is all we know of heaven,
And all we need of hell.
(Emily Dickinson [source])
…and:
Integrity
the quality or state of being complete; unbroken condition; entirety
—WebsterA wild patience has taken me this far
as if I had to bring to shore
a boat with a spasmodic outboard motor
old sweaters, nets, spray-mottled books
tossed in the prow
some kind of sun burning my shoulder-blades.
Splashing the oarlocks. Burning through.
Your fore-arms can get scalded, licked with pain
in a sun blotted like unspoken anger
behind a casual mist.The length of daylight
this far north, in this
forty-ninth year of my life
is critical.The light is critical: of me, of this
long-dreamed, involuntary landing
on the arm of an inland sea.
The glitter of the shoal
depleting into shadow
I recognize: the stand of pines
violet-black really, green in the old postcard
but really I have nothing but myself
to go by; nothing
stands in the realm of pure necessity
except what my hands can hold.
Nothing but myself?… My selves.
After so long, this answer.
As if I had always known
I steer the boat in, simply.
The motor dying on the pebbles
cicadas taking up the hum
dropped in the silence.Anger and tenderness: my selves.
And now I can believe they breathe in me
as angels, not polarities.
Anger and tenderness: the spider’s genius
to spin and weave in the same action
from her own body, anywhere —
even from a broken web.The cabin in the stand of pines
is still for sale. I know this. Know the print
of the last foot, the hand that slammed and locked that door,
then stopped to wreathe the rain-smashed clematis
back on the trellis
for no one’s sake except its own.
I know the chart nailed to the wallboards
the icy kettle squatting on the burner.
The hands that hammered in those nails
emptied that kettle one last time
are these two hands
and they have caught the baby leaping
from between trembling legs
and they have worked the vacuum aspirator
and stroked the sweated temples
and steered the boat here through this hot
misblotted sunlight, critical light
imperceptibly scalding
the skin these hands will also salve.
(Adrienne Rich [source])
…and:
I have yet to figure out what life is really all about, and I doubt that I will ever come up with the answer. I do find a certain fascination with the unpredictable. The transitory years we wade through are what they are — what we make of them. I’m still happy to be here, and I’m clever enough to know that my date of departure remains time’s secret. I trust time. It has been my friend for a long while, and we have been through a lot together.
(Gordon Parks [source])
Froog says
I believe this is the first time I’ve managed to catch a WRF post on a Friday!
I am now one time zone nearer to you, but still a dozen in advance – and I didn’t think these wonderments usually surfaced until noon or so in Florida. Quite bamboozled to find this waiting for me only a little after 10pm my time. Thank you.
Froog says
Have you noticed ReCaptcha has moved on to a ‘Can you distinguish the objects in this set of photographs?’ challenge?
In such tiny photographs it’s not easy!
Is that a tree? Or is it only a bush? Or is it just some ill-defined green thing slumped in front of an apartment building?
My answer is different to that of the dweebs who helped compile the test sample for you?! Start again….