[Image: “Double exposures: Sunset & Night,” by Pawel Jusyn; found it on Flickr, and use it here, with gratitude, under a Creative Commons license.]
The Missus and I have embarked on a months-long road trip around the US. It’s an odd feeling not to be (as they say) “moving someplace else”; we have no “home” to come home to. We’ll just have to see where each succeeding horizon takes us.
Meanwhile…
#98: There’s never enough time — for doing the things you want to do or for having done them, let alone for remembering them afterwards. No one has ever lived that long, no one ever will. And yet, people do die contented — always have, always will.
How to explain this seeming contradiction?
Easy: the ones who die with something of a smile on their faces have acquired the gift of drawing pleasure from whatever experiences have been in front of them. Note that “in front of them” doesn’t mean physically, right there and then — it simply points to what they’re sensing, one way or another, at any given moment.
We know the dangers of confusing memories of events with the events themselves, and have often discussed in these pages such dangers. But the eyes, too, can be fooled. We can misunderstand sounds; confuse one spoken word for another; suffer from the pings, whistles, cracks and rattles of tinnitus. And the blind men and the elephant — they’re us, grasping at things and confabulating explanations for them from faulty premises. We excuse all of these sensory mistakes, one way or another. Yet for some reason the sensing of the past — the sensing which we call memory — is scorned for its imperfection. I think those smilers at the moment of death know better than the rest of us just how precious their world is, when handled with love by whatever senses, including nostalgia, they can command.
(JES, Maxims for Nostalgists)
Loved the below from whiskey river over the last week — much of it chiming in resonance with things going on in my (our) life right now:
Choosing to Think of It
Today, ten thousand people will die
and their small replacements will bring joy
and this will make sense to someone
removed from any sense of loss.
I, too, will die a little and carry on,
doing some paperwork, driving myself
home. The sky is simply overcast,
nothing is any less than it was
yesterday or the day before. In short,
there’s no reason or every reason
why I’m choosing to think of this now.
The short-lived holiness
true lovers know, making them unaccountable
except to spirit and themselves – suddenly
I want to be that insufferable and selfish,
that sharpened and tuned.
I’m going to think of what it means
to be an animal crossing a highway,
to be a human without a useful prayer
setting off on one of those journeys
we humans take. I don’t expect anything
to change. I just want to be filled up
a little more with what exists,
tipped toward the laughter which understands
I’m nothing and all there is.
By evening, the promised storm
will arrive. A few in small boats
will be taken by surprise.
There will be survivors, and even they will die.
(Stephen Dunn [source… and I don’t mind at all that I also used in a post about two-and-a-half years ago])
